FAT...overnight

That's what it feels like anyway. You go through life and one day someone snaps a picture. You look at it thinking "that's not me...is it?" Yeah. That's you alright. You were busy with life and never stopped to realize that you were getting bigger and bigger. It happened overnight. I think that's why all of us "fat" people want it to come off just as quickly. Too bad life doesn't work like that. There are no "easy" buttons...thanks a lot Staples!

I had a picture taken of me at a friend's daughter's birthday party in 2009. I was absolutely shocked when I saw it. There was no way I was that big! I didn't see that person when I looked in the mirror. After having my second child in 2010, I decided I finally had enough. I was 220 pounds. Unfortunately, I cannot blame pregnancy on that either. I lost my pregnancy weight (which was only 20 pounds). I needed help. I had seen a new Jenny Craig commercial with a skinny Sara Rue! Holy Moly! She looked so great! So I called Jenny in September 2010.

I was scrict on the program and made wonderful progress! I didn't cheat the slightest bit during the holidays. That was HUGE! Everything was going pretty good until the spring semester was winding down. Finals were coming! I think I failed to mention I am an emotional eater! So the more stressed I get, the more I eat! This is the same way with me being happy too! It's a lose-lose situation. Anyway, I signed up for summer classes. That brought on some uncharted-stress-territory! I gave up on me. So I was SEVEN pounds from my goal of 140 pounds a few months ago, and have gained almost TWENTY pounds back. Yeah...it sucks. But, instead of dwelling on it, I am going to get over it. I can do this. I have the tools to do it, and I will be successful. I am going to take it one meal at a time!